WARNING: JOURNAL MAY CONTAIN HAPPINESS

While winter seemed to just linger on far into the April days, I knew I could count on the sun to come out on my birthday, like always.

Today was a very good day. In itself nothing out of the ordinary, yet something I haven't quite had in a long time.
I haven't been thinking too much about my birthday; in fact, the day before I stayed up untill 6 in the morning to work on a website. Of course this makes me exhausted today but at least now I can go to bed before 12.

Basically what I wanted for today was to just have some time for myself. No one was around in the house anyway, so I could just be with my own thoughts. Because I went to bed so late (or rather early) I had overslept and missed the arrival of a package that I have been waiting 5 weeks for now. On top of that they're going to charge me an extra 18 Euros before I can recieve it. I hate the mail!
Luckily I did get the game I ordered, which was a gift from my mom.

Around 4 in the afternoon my grandparents showed up and congatulated my like family does and I ended up going with them to my uncle's place at the lake for a little after birthday party (his birthday was on the 24th). Lots of fun and amazing weather!


I was thinking today, about how I usually spend my birthdays and how today felt completely unlike them but I came to the conclusion that I am truely happy.
I may not always sound too happy in these here journals, and sure I do have a ton of problems that demand a lot of energy I don't have, but it is true: I am truely happy.
Happy to be with myself, happy to have a creative mind, happy to have a better insight on life and people than most others, happy to have an amazing girlfriend who I, over time, will be with forever. Happy to have the best, best friend around to laugh with. Happy to be able to see my mom without having to think about all the crap in the past that kept her from being just that: a mom.

I have been saying it all along: what I need is sunshine and warmth to give me this strength. Winter is just a little life-drainer that needs to crawl away into a corner and die (without upsetting the natural balance of the ecosystem better yet, I'll just move somewhere that doesn't have cold winters...like Florida! n_n ).

From here on starts my time of the year. And I will be happy