Title: "Seperated From Love"


EDIT 2009:

I'm getting a little tired of reading my old, whiney comments from time to time, but I suppose this picture does tell an important story in my life. A story I shouldn't just erase.

I'm glad to say that I've grown up a lot over the past years, after dealing with things as described in the original description.

I had a really big price to pay to be who I am today, altough I did get a lot in return for it.

Suffice to say, I miss having a girlfriend. Someone to love and be loved by.
Of course I never really 'got' love and now I have God teaching me a thing or two about it.
It's enough to last a life time (and beyond), but in addition I would like to be able to share love with a young woman again.

Someday, when the time is right.



End EDIT 2009

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You may find this one looking familliar. And yes I have posted it before. But things have changed alot since that time.
Maybe you remember my old love situation. It wasn't very pleasant...I didn't know the difference between a crush and love and I let that ruin my life...

I give you the old description, after that I give you my new thoughts, cause I now know...please read the following:

Old Description

I let it happen before..."falling in love" with someone I can't be with...
This picture symbolizes that very thing...the pole could be seen as a person...reaching out so desperatly...but it's no use..the sun (symbol for the other person) is too far away...not only that but the water (symbol for distance) makes sure their love cannot be...along with the current (symbol for unreturned feelings) making sure one never reaches the other

Some claim I don't know what love is...I agree now...

--Ray

This song seems to fit the situation well:

Tears From The Moon-- Conjure One

Couldn't sleep so I went out walking
Thinking about you and hearing us talking
And all the things I should have said
Echo now, inside my head

I feel something falling from the sky
I'm so sad I made the angels cry

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Tears from the moon, tears from the moon

It just ain't fair this thing called loving
When one step there and the other feels nothing
I would have done anything for you
I still love you, baby I adore you

All day I keep from falling apart
But at night when the sky gets dark

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Stop, Stop haunting me
It should be easy
As easy as when you stopped wanting me

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
but tears from the moon
can't wash away the pain

Tears from the moon, tears from the moon
Tears from the moon, tears from the moon

New description

I let my life fall to pieces. But when I stopped looking for love, love found me. In the form of my dearest friend Daphne, my very first watcher right here on DA.
Yes, she too was far away from me. But one could not ignore these feelings.

I broke those chains, and got over myself. On the 23th of December 2005, I stepped on that airplane, and crossed that ocean...the very water that once kept me from being where I should be.

We met, we clicked, we were meant for eachother. Love was there, love is still there.

I now know what love is...the price was high but it was very much worth it...

This one is for you Daphne, I love you so much.

--Ray

And these lyrics are from a song we share.

Ocean Lab -- Satellite

My love is like first steps in this snow, baby,
I follow you everywhere you go, baby.
The pain as light has come to wake you
But you will never realize
That I inspire the dreams that guide you baby.

I follow the winds that bring the cold, baby,
I light a fire in your soul, baby.
The lightest touch of feathers falling
My love might be invisible
But I inspire the dreams that guide you, baby

You're a half a world away
But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.
And before you sleep at night
You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.

Your singing satellite

You say a prayer
You say a prayer

You're a half a world away
But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.
And before you sleep at night
You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.

You're a half a world away
But in my mind I whisper every single word you say.
And before you sleep at night
You pray to me, your lucky star, your singing satellite.


Thanks for reading. Comments and favs are most welcome!

--Ray